Lately, I hate to admit...that I have struggled with so much. I rest in the fact that I know God never leaves me and that His grace is sufficient...still there are points when I lose sight of that or I simply forget. I have felt so isolated lately...which leads me to further reliance on Him. I am reminded that he is the sole rock I can rest upon. He is the only one who brings me peace.
I have been studying/working my way slowly through the Old Testament lately. God is revealing not only his nature/character to me but opening my eyes to passages and verses that previously did not seem to hold much meaning to me. I love to see my relationship with God growing and my faith deepening. It is amazing to see Gods personality reflected in his creation. I am so thankful that he has pursued me even with my many flaws.
A song that spoken to my heart is Big Daddy Weave's
Redeemed.
Lyrics:
Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me "son
Stop fighting a fight it's already been won"
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I'm redeemed
All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, "Child lift up your head"
I remember, oh God, You're not done with me yet
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be
Because I don't have to be the old man inside of me
'Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I've got a new name, a new life,
I'm not the same
And a hope that will carry me home
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, 'cause I'm not who I used to be
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away ever stain, yeah I'm not who I used to be
Oh God, I'm not who I used to be
Jesus, I'm not who I used to be
'Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed
Amen! So thankful for his unending love and his forgiveness!
